Well, that was depressing.
Went to the doctor this afternoon. I haven’t been since April, which was shortly after I quit my job. Anyway, I just went in for a weight check to get refills on some meds. After 30 days of no grains, dairy, sugar, booze, and whatever else, I am UP 7.2 pounds. I kind of hate life right now.
There are some mitigating factors– my appointments used to always be in the mornings as opposed to afternoons, etc. Also, I guess I gained quite a bit more in the intervening months than I’d realized, and had to lose all of that. Sigh. Still super bummed though.
I really, really, REALLY wanted to stop at the Sonic I passed and get a breakfast burrito. I mean, fuck it all. What’s the point?
And– beware, more whining ahead– it’s not fair. It’s seriously just not fair. Why do I have to work so hard and be so careful for minimal results while there are tiny people out there who consistently litter my social media feeds with pictures of their pizza and ice cream? Waaaahhhh!
Ok, done now. Sorry. I have made progress, and I’m happy about that. I’m happy for my little reprieve tomorrow, too.
TWO MORE DAYS TO GO.
I have gone almost 30 days with no grains, dairy, sweetener, booze and a plethora of other things included in convenience food.
The ‘what difference does a couple of days make?’ thoughts are kind of punching me in the face today. I’m not the only one expressing them, either. My bestie told me ‘Go. To. A bar.’ Sigh. Good thing she’s out of state.
Does it seem unfair to anyone else that I have to actually do the 30th day? Can’t I just make it to 30? Sheesh.
Three more days, after today. I’m pretty proud of myself.
I do have some ’27 days is basically 30′ thoughts flitting around right now, though. I’m resisting. Partially because I’m lazy, and don’t feel like going out to get fun food. Also, partially, because I really want to be able to say that I did it for 30 days. And, I’m hoping to get to an even 15 pounds lost. We’ll see.
I read the reintroduction instructions on the Whole30 website today. They suggest reintroducing banned foods gradually, to be able to get a better handle on which are too difficult for your body to process. And, if I was doing this because of the way I felt previously, that would make sense. I didn’t really have any food allergies or intolerances. I just wanted to be generally healthier and eat better. I think that my plan going forward will be to eat as cleanly as possible mostly, and probably have a cheat day once a week. That’s pretty much the opposite of what they suggest. We’ll see how it goes.
Anyway, I feel like it’s a sustainable way to live, though it does require a lot of planning. I’m not sure I would have made it this long if I’d had a job. I think the time and mentally energy involved would have been more than I would have had to spare if I was working. I don’t know how people do this, have jobs, exercise, raise kids, maintain websites, etc. When do you people sleep?
Man, one of the biggest learning curves I’ve had to deal with on this thing is planning ahead. It’s funny, because I keep overestimating either what I’ve actually done, or how far what I’ve done will get me. Anyway, today was a bit rough. More dress shopping with the sister, and I was out of the house from 10 AM till about 3 PM. I’d had my last two cooked eggs for breakfast, but I hadn’t bothered to eat any fruit (I usually do). I’d brought some almonds with me, which I ate around lunch time. My mom kept whining about wanting to take us all to lunch as well, which didn’t make it easier to wait till I got home to have my salad. And since I hadn’t bothered to take any meat out of the freezer the day before and I’d eaten all my eggs, my salad didn’t have any protein. Wasn’t a huge deal, I ate the salad as a snack and made dinner a couple hours later (sweet potato hash with fried eggs– because all my meat is still frozen! [I pulled out some ground beef, finally]). Oh well, things to work on.
It’s day 26. I’m almost there.
Day 25. I don’t feel so great, actually. Really bad acid reflux, which is unusual for me. Bummer. Oh shit. I just realized that the Tums I ate was probably not ok. It didn’t even help, so that’s annoying.
All that said, 5 days to go. Yay!
I will totally reuse this title later. No shame.
Day 24. I have already made plans for beer and pizza next Thursday with a friend of mine. I am not playing around. I will eat and drink all the things. But, until then, and hopefully after, sticking with the plan.
You know what’s really difficult when you’re trying to remove certain popular, easily accessible foods from your diet? TV and social networking. Mostly with TV, it’s a quick flash and it’s gone, so it’s not as tough. Navigating away from the foodporn pics on FB and IG requires actual willpower, though. What’s harder? Staring at something you can’t have or not even getting to stare at it? I haven’t quite sussed that one out yet.
Anyway, the countdown is on.